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Last night I needed fresh air. It wasn't optional. Like, I actually smelled like bed and tears. I'm so disgusting. Thomas knew I needed to get out and he also knew I would probably say no, because after three knee surgeries and a damning diagnosis (and a legitimate requirement for a total knee reconstruction sometime soon), properly playing football isn't possible at the moment. It hasn't been possible for the last ten years, but I always come back to it. With the release of Gap Year and even more so with Sam's Silence in the Walden School series, you will find more of me. Most of you haven't yet been acquainted with the other part of Bella because she's been hidden away in the Waldorf Manor series.
The smell of cut grass is the first thing I recognise about a football pitch. It's the first and last thing, actually. I can still juggle the ball and pass back and forth, doing a few tricks and strengthening my left kick. My favourite thing to do is flip the ball up from under my boot (cleat) rather than pick it up from the ground with my hands, and juggle it a few times before slamming it across the pitch to Thomas. The more I smack it around the less angry I become. That's why I always come back to football. Then I remember it's completely worth getting out of bed, wiping my tears (and snot and mascara), finding my kit, and letting Thomas drive me just before sunset to the place I love best. A pitch with a net and hopefully some lights for when the sun goes down, will always be somewhere. I find it. Wherever I'm living whether in England or some obscure town in America, I find it and that's where I'm undone. I hate leaving. I am completely Samantha Holloway, perhaps especially in this season of my life. I'm smiling here because I'm reminded that even just putting on those striped socks has a lot of power. Just looking at them reminds me of how much I love the game and why I continue to act like a footballer even when my body disagrees.
Yes, THE game. There is only one.
Gap Year releases 27 July 2016
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